Reflections on a year...

The days leading up to time-marks such as New Years, Christmas, Birthday’s, etc, never quite seem to sit well with me. You would think that one would look forward to them as a chance to celebrate, party, let loose, use them as an excuse to do something out of character, or as an excuse to do nothing at all. Some use them as an excuse to spoil themselves, over-eat, spend a lot of money or indulge. Some see them as a reason to be well behaved, a reason to keep the peace or swallow words that would much rather be spat out in full force. And others see them as a chance to reminisce, reflect on what has been, treat someone else, write something from the heart, be honest or catch up with neglected family or friends.

For some though, it seems to be a time when they spiral into a subtle state of anxiety, uncertainty and nervousness. Seeing it as a small reminder of what they haven’t done, haven’t ticked off their ‘to do’ list for the year or what they ‘will’ or ‘will not’ do in the form of a new year’s resolution for the year to come. It’s not the best feeling when it gets to the end of another year and the little piece of paper that you stuck up on your mirror which lists ‘things to buy for 2009’ and ‘goals for 2009’ only have a couple crossed off the ambitious list of ten or so! Neither is it encouraging when your New Year’s resolution is the same as last years because you didn’t actually resolve what you wanted to resolve the first time around…

But at least we can cherish the fact that with each new year that goes by either marked by a birthday, Christmas or New Year we get that little bit more intelligent, learn a few more new things, expand our vocabulary a bit more and meet a few more varieties of human. That’s good enough for me!

Beth